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2010-12-23T09:09:00.000-08:00

time flies,
In the twinkling of an eye,
Christmas is around the corner,
A whole new year is approaching.

I'm 21st this year,
I'd have to say,
this year really means a lot to me.

Many things happened this year,
which I'm not able to write out all in this post,

If I'd have one word to conclude this year,
I'd choose "得"

what I've learnt this year:

1. 选你所爱，爱你所选..
I've chosen you~
Even I didn't mention it all the time,
trust me
May time prove my sincerity~
love you, Dear =)

2. Be a trend follower

3. to love with classical music

4. have a healthy lifestyle
health is above wealth.

5. 目标坚定，奋斗!
make up your mind,
strive for your goals,
develop and follow your own path to success =)

~ I'm on my way =D ~

learn to be a trend follower =)

2010-11-29T08:08:00.000-08:00

this world is simply a place where people gather to share feelings,
by any number of ways, for any number of reasons...

Our feelings could be divided into three,
positive, negative and mean...

positive includes happy, joy, excited etc..
negative such as sad, lonely, moody, emo..
mean, everything is just normal, no happy nor sad...

in order to live happily,
simple,
maintain feelings of positive, bear negative, and get mean into positive...

All of this sound simple, but is not easy...
for sure, we would not be feeling happy or sad constantly all the time,
feelings of positive and negative change time to time...
the fluctuation of the feelings between positive and negative forms "Trend"...

When there is something good happens, positive feeling formed, called uptrend,
if thing happens the other way round, called downtrend...
mean could be defined as sideway...

One of my basic philosophical tendencies is that
change is constant, change is random,
and trends will reappear if we go through a non-trending period...

half year since last post

2010-06-09T08:41:00.000-07:00

It has been half year since last post，
I'm back eventually~

what had happen to me? =)
anything change?

nope,
I'm still who I am...
but slightly better, I guess...

I felt wonder while I was reading back all the post...

erm,
半年前，半年后，
有什么改变？

想法，心态，
确实改变很多，

这半年，过得不太忙，
但充实，

因为每天都是做想做的事情，
是不是半年前的一段时间很难过，
所以上天倪补回我呢？
我不懂，
不过可以肯定的，
我会珍惜 =)

不后悔曾经做过的任何事，
如果没有这些，
也不会有今天的我...

不懂什么时候，
开始知道，什么应该珍惜，什么应该放手~

有些问题你问我时，
我只笑不答，就别再问了 =)
我，过得快乐，开心~

如果我给你发短讯，
代表我真的想到你，
没其他的~

有时我真的只想安静一下，
如果我没回你短讯，
不要生气，
见到面时，骂一骂我就好了...

你并不能真正地了解我，
因为你不是我，
我尝试去了解你，感受你，
如果失败的话，
没关系，我明白 =)

If u read through this post until here,
thanks for your concern,
I appreciate it,
oh ya, u may text me as well to let me know =)

-Original Dreamz-

2010-02-27T04:50:00.000-08:00

　　Original Dream

　　If pride has not been patted down callously by the billows of reality
　　How can we profoundly realize how painstaking it is for us to reach the target afar...
　　

　　If dream has not suffered the extreme of falling off cliff
　　How can we know who is with grim determination
　　is actually endowed with invisible wings...

　　swallow the tears in heart
　　that will grow into a stout flower
　　At the time of exhaustion
　　We are able to nose a scent with eyes closed...

　
　　As if we have slumbered soundly till dawn
　　Still singing as walking
　　With a brisk pace...
　　
　　When the weigh of solitariness outstands in dismay
　　How craving you are for a warm and reliable shoulder from who understands...
　
　　I feel exceedingly gleeful for our persistent mutual understanding all the way
　　Which goes through gales and circles with hearts tightly linking up
　　Grasp our original dream fast within hands...
　　
　　How can we sail back halfway on the way to our most desirable destination?
　　The original dream will surely be reached...
　　
　　Only by finalizing our aspiration can we truly land on the Heaven :D

-fireflies-

2010-02-22T09:56:00.000-08:00

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

Cause they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude but I wouuld just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sockhop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
Please take me away from here
Cause I feel like such an insomniac
Please take me away from here
Why do I tire of counting sheep
Please take me away from here
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizzare
Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like To make myself believe
That Planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm
Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the sea

random... ...

2010-02-05T09:33:00.000-08:00

juz b home...
went to Julyap's house played mahjong,
with Julyap and Nic,
lost at first but win b at last XD... ...

suddenly feel the luck is coming back,
I hope so... ...

had a spicy pan mee after mahjong,
stomach is juz like burning now ><"

clubing night XD

2010-02-03T08:21:00.000-08:00

Honestly, I'm not a "clubing kaki"...
seldom go for clubing actually...

But, I would say
clubing is very enjoyed,
especially with friends XD

Location: The Curve- The Santuary
Time : not sure, should be 12a.m something...

There are some photo which can't be posted here XD

Anyways, really enjoyed at that moment~

random... ...

2010-02-01T08:41:00.000-08:00

there is a test tomorrow,
finished revision,
just went back from Frankie there... ...

gotta rush back all the things,
played too much last week,
is funny, is crazy, is enjoyed,
really appreciate that moment :D

p.s. hope you are still a friend there~

miss a good friend tonight :)

Impulse of foolish~

2010-01-30T21:21:00.000-08:00

I drunk that night,
walked away from my friends... ...

keep talking nonsense there,
sorry, is my fault,
I was just thinking repression of my heart,
didn't consider the feelings of other people at all... ...

I've forgotten what I was saying,
don't take it seriously... ...
I was just venting... ...

don't worry,
I won't be doing anything silly... ...

ps: take care there... ...

angel derived from heart... ...

2010-01-30T03:54:00.000-08:00

a true story about my frenz,
I have got a frenz name N,
everyone think she is an angel... ...

at first, I don't think so,
no one is perfect,
everyone has his weak point... ...

actually she never think she is good too,
she's just being who she is... ...

she worked at a music center during last sem break,
one day,
a little of her working place told her something,

little girl said : N jie jie, you are kind, but the XX is not. (XX is someone working there also)

N said : no lar, she is good also.

little girl said : no, you are different, you are kind from your heart.

N said : ok then, thanks ^^

little girl: N jie jie, since you are kind, I want to give you something, promise not telling anyone o.

N : ok ok, what's that?

little girl took out a Rm0.10 coin from her pocket,
then she quickly hold N's hand tight and squeeze on her hand, she don't want anyone saw it...
and said: I want to give you this lucky coin. only for you, not for her.

N : erm, thanks first, but I am actually working, should not take any money from customer. And I think Rm0.10 should not be that useful for me.

little girl : How do you know? maybe you need this coin one day.

N : Rm0.10 can't even buy a sweet today.

little girl : Maybe you need it to make an emergency call one day.

Finally, my friend refused to take it anyway...

After she went back home,
she told all the thing to her dad,

Her dad said that she should take it... ...

why?

In this world,
more and more people are just thinking of "take" instead of "give"... ...
the little girl is different, she just think of giving but not look for taking back anything,
no matter how little she gives, you should receive and appreciate it... ...

let think about it,
If you refuse her, how will she think?
She may think of giving is some thing wrong,
She thinks of giving to some one who she think is kind (N),
but why did N refuse her,
Is that giving is not a good thing?
If that happen, the little girl may not be willing to give anymore... ...

It's a true story from my friend N,
we always say: give and take la,
but how are we actually doing?

ps: miss you again today, but I'm fine :p

somewhere else, far away

2010-01-29T15:56:00.000-08:00

now that you're gone,
somewhere else,
far away,
all I know is I miss you,

that day you left,
was the saddest of my heart,
I remember going home,
but I can't remember crying for the night...

I've been trying to be good,
just for the one I love...

I know,
I will never be perfect,
but I want you to be proud of me,

I know,
gonna let go one day,
gonna wake up one day,
gonna forget one day,

but for this moment,
you are still the one I love the most...

~river flows in you~
I'm still feeling pain,
everytime I listen to it again,

may you listen it once,
don't feel my pain,
but feel who I am... ...

************

don't worry,
I am fine and ok now XD

2009-03-02T05:07:00.000-08:00

trouble and pressure revolving around...
everytime you step forward...

Do this place always works with a balance?
hav been wondering long time...
may pressure adsorbed equal to joys?
but the balance is being ruined...
pressure has been adsorbing too much...
more than anyone can help...
take my measure all the time with
what's been heard and what's been seen...
judge in haste, but repent at leisure...

the lake has been being calm for a long time....
someone may try to rip it some spray...
as the lipper is gettin blown up more and more...
the one might hope it turn back to the peace...

you can easily rip the peace of my place...
by a petty action...
but the lake with lipper is hard to be recovered back...
need to take a pretty long time...

back to trouble...
pressure cant be avoided...
I don't mean to have totally stressless...
but at least...
kidding with me most of the time...
as more pressure given...

someone have been alone for all the time...
but he has never felt upset...
even lonely...
one day....
the other one comes into his life...
only then he feel the meaning of the accompanying...
finally, is time....
the one step out of his life...
he is wonderng some feeling that he never felt before...
he finally know the feeling of loneliness...
he might be aware of sad...
and the taste of tears...

If you was him...
do u prefer that the one never comes into yr place?
so that couldnt bring you any annoynance?
or you're willing to accept the leave...
treassure the happiness that the one brought you for the time...

2009-02-17T04:19:00.000-08:00

17 feb 09
21:00
this place is turnin cold...
since the day u went off...
hard to tolerate this feeling of cool...
but can do nothing...

it might be the season change...
cant deterrent the leaf that wind brought away...
hope it brought away anythin of u...
with no vestige left as u never came before...

season change...
should fly back to sumwhere u came from...
sumone will be just standing here...
look at the view of your back gone...
wish the bird fly back to her happiness and never cum back anymore...

is gettin cool and cool here...
cant cum out even one word to ask u to stay...

is not your fault...
just not in time...
Incessant time turns anythin to be comely and precious...
It's a pity...
It never stop over at the moment forever...

~tryin my best to slowly adapt to the cool~

2009-02-09T15:25:00.000-08:00

10 feb 09
03:14
Is there necessary to change?
change to be better? or mayb worse...
There has no absolutely true or false...
only different point of view...
from your angle...
there is always a great gulf fixed between us...
try to catch up your pace...
fail to catch up...
and froced to put down somethin that is'nt willing to part with...

one couldn't slow down her pace...
another is tired to catch up...

everythin shall be stopped?
before it's too late to feel sorry...
before it can't bear to see somebody leave......

2009-02-08T12:33:00.000-08:00

09 feb 09
04:59
when was the begining?
can't recall...
a strange name from a familiar voice...
thinkin it'd just stayed a while in my place...
but no one has thought of it......

a relationship's being held count backwards...
even the opportunity is recurred...
the upshot of it all will still remain the same...

maybe somethin is goin to be lost...
that someone is awake to treasure it......

2009-02-06T08:15:00.000-08:00

07 feb 09

12:21

from today onwards...

I'll be writing down my life here....

recording every moment...

afraid to lose those memory with you...